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Why I Love Being Invisible In My 60s

No one notices me anymore? No problem!


a semi translucent woman sits on a bench while people walk by
Monica Garwood

Welcome to Ethels Tell All, where the writers behind The Ethel newsletter share their personal stories related to the joys and challenges of aging. Come back Wednesday each week for the latest piece, exclusively on AARP Members Edition

During one of my recent morning walks in the neighborhood, a car slowly rolled up to the young woman 20 feet ahead of me, talking on her phone. The driver poked his head out the window to ask if “pretty mama” wanted a ride. She ignored him and kept walking, but he continued badgering her.

I felt sorry for her, remembering the times I had been catcalled by men and the rude comments that often followed. The guy finally gave up and drove on, never once glancing in my direction. It was as if I were invisible — and I loved it.

A while back, while walking past a group of male workers, I braced myself for their curious gazes and remarks, but they looked right through me. It was the first time I tasted the freedom of not being seen, of not being analyzed or judged for my outward appearance. It was a liberating moment, a relief from the constant scrutiny I had grown up with.

My parents believed that appearances were everything. Whether it was dressing for school, church or dinner out with the family, my siblings and I were always primped to look our best.

There were also years of braces to straighten my teeth, monthly hair appointments and magazine clippings of dieting tips pinned to the fridge as a reminder to manage my weight. I did what I could to look pretty whenever our family went out — but mostly I just wanted to be invisible.

If a stranger’s gaze fell on me, I quickly looked away in the hopes that they wouldn’t comment on my appearance. My parents assumed I was shy and did their best to push me out of my shell. But their constant remarks about my looks made me even more self-conscious: “Straighten your posture, brush your hair off your face, walk with your toes pointed forward, suck in your tummy ...”

These comments were often followed by lectures on the importance of first impressions. The message was clear: Make myself visible by being as attractive as possible.

My attitude changed once I was old enough to enter the dating scene. I wanted to stand out so that the high school boys would notice me. I took great pains to curl my hair, apply just the right amount of lipstick (never too much, my mother said, or else I’d look cheap) and iron my dresses so that there were no creases.

But I quickly learned that the consequences of being visible also included criticism and unwarranted gossip. Remarks about my bra size or the shapelessness of the baggy jeans I wore to disguise my weight left me feeling insecure and wishing I could disappear like Casper into the walls. I struggled to be pretty enough and visible like the popular girls at school, but gaining male attention was a double-edged sword.

This obsession with my appearance continued even when I got married.  I wanted my husband to be proud of how I looked when we went out on the town. But when I was alone in public, I avoided making eye contact with people, especially men. I hated being assessed from head to toe like a side of beef.

Sometimes their blatant stares were followed by ugly remarks and gestures that made me feel even uglier inside. I longed for the day when my looks wouldn’t matter to anyone but myself — a day when I could feel the power of invisibility.

That day finally came, the morning I walked through my neighborhood. Now, when I’m at the gym, the hardware store or a restaurant, there are no more unnerving stares from men or curious glances from women. In fact, most people’s gazes float beyond me.

Whether I’m dressed to the nines or just wearing an old T-shirt and no makeup, people don’t notice me. It’s incredibly freeing; I no longer feel self-conscious or pressured to stand out. I can just be me, embracing my age and my authenticity.

Many female friends my age complain about being part of the “invisible generation” and the lack of relevance that comes with it, but I only see its advantages. I don’t need to conform to societal expectations in the way I look, and I feel more valued now for what I can bring to the table: wisdom and experience acquired by age.

Being evaluated for my personality rather than my appearance is a game changer that has helped me make genuine connections with people who accept me for my true self. I’ve also learned to emphasize other aspects of myself by exploring creative interests and focusing on my personal growth. But this was only possible when I stopped worrying about how others perceived me.

I’m entering the renaissance phase of my life, and I plan on taking full advantage of this empowering chapter. Like Casper, I have the freedom to explore the world undetected, making my newfound invisibility my superpower.

AARP essays share a point of view in the author’s voice, drawn from expertise or experience, and do not necessarily reflect the views of AARP.

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