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“In Three Words or Three Lifetimes, It Still Hurts”No one knew. We never fought. Words won’t do. If not heard. Not tended to. Reflection was Pleasantville. It was not. Costly your affairs. Dealings without care. Missing was love. His actions hurt. My spirit lost. Mental pain continued. How could he? What’s the point? No love present. Try some more. Felt so numb. Children needed us. Always-same repetitions. Change is not. What will be?Life goes on. Close my eyes. I look away. Shield the children. Make a home. All that matters. They come first. Making no amends. Keeping it so. They needn’t know. Can they discern? Any hints felt? Do they see? Them, I’ll protect.Through the thick. Through the thin. Years I prayed. Nothing has altered. Now have understanding. Time has come. No more love. I hurt so. Blinders now off. My spirit impaired. Cannot give more. It is over. No more submissions. Not one more! On my part. It won’t help. It’s so unfair. One shouldn’t take. Acquire without debate. What of children? Do they matter? Do you worry? Do I matter? Do you care? Damage to all. This is over. It is nevermore. Too much time. Has been wasted. Hurts so deep. Will they heal? I pray so. Help me Lord. Give me strength. I will follow. Where you lead.It’s now years. So much time. How many sorrows? Time to tell. How to convey. They are precious. Innocence they are. Give me words. They will understand. Protection from unhappiness. Let them know. I’ll always be. I’ll always love. They did nothing. It couldn’t be. It is over. Years I tried. All is gone. Nothing is left. My spirits dying. It shouldn’t be. It has ended. We’ll move on. We’ll be okay. Do they know? Let them heal. Give them understanding.You’re no blame. It was he. I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. Tears by all. Instantaneously everything stopped. My children’s eyes. Held so much. How could he? He should know. Has he heart? I think not. Hurt us all. Make them whole. Fill them through. Love with meaning. I need strength. See me strong. I’ll carry on. Don’t you worry? We’ll make out. I’ll make sure. I’m so sorry.Settled our home. He still shadows. Wherever I turn. There he looms. Now he’s stocking. He threatens me. Take my children. He’s getting back. Retribution for leaving. Pray, move on. Leave us alone. Find your direction. Don’t you see? They hurt more. Your actions took. Their comforts away. Where’s their security? You’ve taken all. Pray, love them. Be a father. If you can.Seven years now. How many more. Let me be. Please move on. You didn’t care. When we were. Stop doing this. Move on please. Think of children. Where’s your regard? They are hurt. Put them first. If you can. Are you able?Took my children. I was sick. He conditioned all. He promised this. Remember, he warned. To take them. Leave me alone. To only myself. For leaving him. The door opened. When illness came. I am alone. Miss them so. Time stands still. Pain is harsh. Make me better. Make me whole. Need be complete. Want my children.Time gone by. I have memories. Mourning I feel. For my loss. I won’t forget. Where are you? Do you think? Do you remember? Mother to each. I love you. I miss you. Not a day. Without my thoughts. Not one lost. See in color. Hugs I remember. Laughter was loud. Smiles so bright. Never let go. I’ll be here. When you come. Soon, I pray.A dozen years. All gone by. So long ago. Will you remember? Have you forgotten? Miss you so. Loves, remember me. I still see. I still hear. Feel your touch. Nothing is forgotten. All in memory. Will never lose. Senses for you. Each of you. I’ll not forget. Never will lose. Site of you. You’re my heart. It’ll always be. Hoping and Praying. Again to see. Each of you. Here I’ll be.Come see me. I will wait. Time is right. Years gone by. More years added. Miss you still. Note was found. All you left. Placed just so. Me to know. Just months ago. All that time. I didn’t know. When I read. Tears I shed. Miss you more. Love you so. Words I’ll cherish. “Love You Mommy.” Signed by each. Each your love. Love you more. Pleased don’t forget. I’m still Mommy.….RaeDi
this is so powerful it is hard to read at one sitting.
Thank you, Berta. ((((hug))))