I made it past my 50th birthday.   It was definately "crazy time'"there for a while.   If this was a mis-life crisis..then it's surprising anyone survives.   I seem to question every area of my life.  

What did I have to show for 50 years on this earth? 

What have I acomplished? 

Have I made a difference? 

Have I left a mark?

I don't really have all the answers to those questions but I realize I have good friends, who love me and want the best for me.    I have a daughter that I can be proud of.   I am trying to be the best persson I can be..with kindness and caring for those around me.  

For now....that's that best I can be at this point in my life.

One week away from my 50th birthday.    Mixed feelings.   Trying to embrace it but have moments of...wow, how did I get here so fast?    Turning 50 is coming with some big changes.    My daughter is getting married and moving to her own place.    I am moving to a smaller place.  Haven't lived alone in about 25 yrs.     I am actually looking forward to it.     I feel like this is a chance to find out who I am and enjoy myself.     I have focused so much on being a good mom that I haven't thought much about me.    Now it's time.     I sincerly hope this will be my last birthday without a mate, partner, lover, friend, all rolled into one.