CLARE, Michigan
United States
"The Beginning and the Reason""The Beginning and the Reason"
On December 29, 2008 I underwent an attempt at Bariatric Surgery. Unfortunately, a torn spleen and two burst arteries, the surgery had to be stopped. I was the third person whom the surgeon had experienced with the same complications. Because he failed to notify me of this particular complication, my husband and I weren't properly informed for my husband to make any decisions for me while I was in the operating room, so the surgery was stopped.
Then, everyone around me knew the surgery hadn't happened but no one told me. Yes, I was left for 4.5 hours thinking the surgery had been successful, when it actually hadn't taken place! My husband couldn't understand why the doctor didn't arrive to discuss the situation with me. Thank the Lord, my husband took matters into his own hands and informed me. I was stunned, and then emotionally I bottomed out! I thought I was getting a chance to start my life over as a thin person and the doctor didn't even care about his patient enough to tell me what had occured during the surgery. Yes, I blame him.
So, what did I do? Well, after the tears and the pity party had ended; I set out to rebuild myself by myself! I managed to lose 9 pounds on my own. Then a friend prompted me to consider hypnotherapy and I did. To date, I have lost 20.3 pounds. I swim at least twice a week in an AquaFit Areobics class. I am physical therapy two days a week. My diet has changed drastically and I went from a size 26 to a size 22.I need to increase my exercise and I will, but I need to strengthen my knees first!
Will I be okay, you bet I will. Do I resent the doctor, you bet I do? Can I really continue my weight loss life, you bet I can and better yet, you bet I will!
Today is better than yesterday and tomorrow will be better than today! One day at a time.
Many thanks for your kind words, I really appreciate them.
I recommend reading the G.I Diet by Rick Gallop, it help change your thinking process about the foods you eat. I don't follow the diet but his words and working with the hypnotherapist helped me understand and empower me to eat healthily.
Many, many thanks for your kind words, I also still have to lose 128 pounds, so take care of you---FIRST---no one else will. Love yourself, and the biggest words of advice are to stop the negative selftalk. You know, those words that always seem to be at the forefront of your mind. The words that taunt you into thinking of yourself as less than you really are. Start with "I" statements. I am going to eat right today. I am going to walk 10 minutes this morning, 10 minutes at noon and 10 minutes this evening.
You can get yourself anywhere you want to go, you just have to love yourself enough to step over all that is mentally and physically in your way. Find Ellie, Love Ellie and most of all take care of Ellie.
I appreciate your kind words and together, life will be our future and weight issues will be our past.
Have a great weekend.
TA
What a terrible experience! Congratulations for your response to it. I am "stuck" at 198 lbs. Maybe your story will help me to get off my duff and do something about it. I'm pretty sure there aare groups (or a group) around here doing the same thing.
Anyway, you have my best wishes and a prayer for you to stay motivated.
Ellie
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