
My Front Door is Pink
By Subito
To be home in a place that is mine, and alone-
It is mine now that I am just me-
Is at once a rare pleasure and sometimes a pain.
Contrasting the rules of a former domain,
I now choose which one it will be.
When I choose to enjoy being home, and alone,
I tour through my home like a guest-
Enjoying the candles and sandlewood soap;
Marveling at how superbly I cope
With what little I have…He got the rest.
But what I have left is all mine, and alone
I‘m directing this show.
I allow my old cat to drink from the sink,
I painted my front door a great shade of pink,
And if I want to go out, I just go.
Oh, sometimes it hurts to be home and alone
With no ‘someone special’ to share
The moments of pleasure I have in my life,
Or the pain that comes from the ironic strife
Of nobody else being there.
And so there’ll be times when I’m home and alone
And ‘lonely’ comes knocking once more.
I’ll welcome it like a good hostess would do;
Escorting it out when the evening is through
While admiring the paint on my door.
I wrote this after I had separated from my former husband and moved to my own home, kids moved out and I found myself enjoying my new situation. I wrote this for all those people out there who need to make the change but are afraid of what might be on the other side of that decision. For me, that included a new husband a few years later, and he is the love of my life. And, my front door isn’t pink anymore, but a very nice shade of green!