I had to go see the chiroprator today, because I have been having trouble with my back.    The doctor started to twist me and straighten my spine.  She told me to relax.  Well, of course, I couldn't relax.  Just thinking about somebody cracking your body is not a relaxing thought.  She asked me if I had trouble trusting people, and I replied yes.  Without a thought, I said yes.  I could not relax and trust the doctor.  I'm a happy and loving person, I think, but I can't really trust.  I know God said, trust no man, trust in me.  You know I listen to God whenever He speaks. 

When people ask you questions, you try to answer the best you can.  I think about every answer I give.  The doctor was questioning me about the pain I was experiencing.  She ask if something traumatic happened that could cause most of my pain.  They always ask if you're depressed.  Yes, I'm depressed because no one can actually tell me why I'm in so much pain all the time.  That's what's depressing me.  Depression is not causing the pain, the pain is causing depression.  It was hard for me to answer the questions she asked.  I was a little vague in answering.  I know that I will have to be truthful with her if I want her to help me.   I started thinking if something was making me depressed. 

First, I hate my job, but that will all end soon.  I lost my father 3 yrs ago and now I have to take on everything that he did.  I have to take care of my mother, and take care of the property he owned.  Pay all of the bills and basically keep the family in check.  With my family, that's going to be a headache.  I'm tired all of the time because of the pain I'm in. 

Yes, I'm going to have to trust her to help me with my problems.  Yes, I'm going to have to trust someone.  I guess today I learned that I don't trust people.  Not with my health, not with my heart, not with my entire being.  Yes, I want to work on that.  I know you need people.  People have been so kind to me on this site.  I wrote another journal about,  "there are some good people in the world."  I know that and I have to continue to believe that.

I learned something about me today.  I'm still a work in progress.

I wrote a journal today about something that happen to my daughter.  She lost her beloved cat today.  She found her baby whose name was Baby, dead by her bed.  She is so heartbroken.  I have cried for my daughter all day.  I have never heard my daughter cry as hard as she cried today.  Never in her adult years. 

I wrote in one of the groups about it and some of the beautiful people comforted me.  I really felt the love from those special people today.  I just wanted to share with all of you that there are still some wonderful people in the world.  I thank all of you that replied to my journal.  You really don't know how it made me feel. 

I can't give up on the world yet.  In spite of all the turmoil that we are in, there is still hope that love still exist.  I give my heart to each and every one of you.  I know that I don't know you personally, but I just feel that I have to say I love you all for what you did for me today.

I'm going to stop now, before I start crying again.  I love my daughter so much, and I feel her pain.  When she hurts, I hurt.  She loves kids and animals.  She is always taking care of somebody's kids and taking in animals that her friends have abandoned.  She had 2 cats that her roommate left when she moved out and a little dog that one of her friends couldn't take to the apartment that she moved into.  My daughter has the heart that God intended for His children to have.  I have always been so proud of her.  I never had any problems with her when she was growing up.  Well, no major problems.  You know when they hit those teen years, they try you.  But it's never been anything serious. 

Well, I just wanted to say thank you to those that gave me comfort today and let others know that there are still some good people in the world.

God Bless!

I signed up for an excercise class and was told to wear loose fitting clothing.  If I had any loose fitting clothing, I would'nt have signed up in the first place.

Don't argue with an idiot.  People watching may not be able to tell the difference.

Why is it that our children can't read a bible in school, but they can in prison?

Why do I have to swear on the bible in court when the Ten Commandents cannot be displayed outside?

I'm just saying.

Let me tell you a little about my Sunday so far.  5am my doorbell rings.  It's the police.  Someone has broken into my car and ransacked it.  Nothing was stolen, because nothing of value was in it.  Oh, excuse me, I had about $6.00 in a hidden tray.  Ok, that starts the day.  Later, my barbeque grill was stolen.  It was an old one, the new one was too big for them to take.  I have a new little kitten that I found in my front yard and I took her in.  She is so cute and lovable, but.....she's destroying my house.  She has attacked a roll of toliet paper and ripped it to shreds.  She jumped on my table and broke a glass candleholder.  I have ceramic angels everywhere and she has knocked  over one at least 3 times.  The same one.  She knocks pictures off the table.  I can't make up the bed, because she attacks the covers.  I can't fold clothes, because she attacks them.  She sprints through the house from front to back.  This kitten has so much energy, I'm worn out just watching her.  But I wouldn't trade her for the world.  She is so lovable.  When I hold her, she looks up into my face and tries to kiss me.  First time she did that, I thought she was trying to bite me.  But she kisses me.  She sleep on my arm and I love to hear her purr.  She has two personalities.  Help me, I think my cat is bipolar.  

But, I won't complain.  Things are not that bad.  My car in still intact and they didn't break any windows, thank God.  I still have a grill to cook on.  And my kitten hasn't killed me yet.  So life is good.  

So how was your sunday?  God Bless! 

Mary had a little lamb, his fleece was white as snow.

He followed her to school one day, which was against the rule.  It made the children laugh and play, to have a lamb at school.

And then the rules all changed one day,

Ilegal it became;  To bring the Lamb of God to school, or even speak His name!

Everyday got worse and worse, and days turned into years.

Instead of hearing children laugh, we heard gun shots and tears.

What must we do to stop the crime that's in our schools today?

Let's let the Lamb come back to school and teach our kids to pray!

I believe that angels exist.  I have people trying to make me believe that angels don't interact in your life as they did in the bible.  They try to tell me that angels don't appear in human form anymore.  It's hard to convince a person who has experienced an angel's presence.  Some might disagreee, but I'd like to tell you a little story.  

 I was driving on the expressway one night and had a bad car accident.  It was 10:30pm.  Of course, all of my doors were locked, because I'm a very careful person.  Well, anyway, a car stalled in front of me and I came to a complete stop because both lanes were blocked.  A van came up behind and didn't stop in time.  He ran into the back of my car, pushing me into the car in front of me.  My car was smashed from front to back.  I hit my eye on the rearview mirror, and no I was not wearing a seatbelt at the time.  As I sat in my car, bleeding from my eye, a woman was sitting in my front seat and asked if I wanted her to sit with me until the paramedics arrived.  I told her yes, and I was talking to her, telling her I couldn't believe that this happened.  I was talking and talking and she never said one word.  It really didn't dawn on me as to how she got into my car, seeing that all the doors were locked. 

When the paramedics arrived, I really didn't see where the woman went.  All I know is that I had to unlock the doors for the paramedics to get to me.   When they put me in the ambulance, they took my blood pressure and told me that it was normal and that I was too calm to have been in an accident as bad as this one.  I never ask anyone about the woman, if they saw her or not.  I guess I really didn't think about her until I was released from the hospital that next day.  By the way, I got 10 stiches in my eyelid.  I have never forgotten the lady in my car, and this happened over 20 yrs ago.  I remember every little detail about that accident, including what was playing on the radio at the time. 

If anyone tries to tell me angels don't exist, you will have an argument on your hands.  I believe that God is still in control and He will use any means to comfort you.  I was so afraid when I looked up and saw that van heading towards me, but I wasn't afraid while my guardian angel sat with me. 

God is good.

Next month, I'm going to have birthday.  I made it to another year in my life.  It never really bother me about turning another year.  I have always been young in my heart and my mind.  When I was younger, I would hear the older people complain about aches and pain.  They would talk about the pain in their knees.  Getting up the stairs was a chore.  I was like, yeah, is it really that bad?  Hello!  I'm there.  You don't pay attention to those joints until they stiffen up on you.  I don't worry about it too much, I just keep hobbling along.   I just praise The Lord that I'm still here.

I have so much to be thankful for.  I look at my adult daughter and ask, "When did that happen?"  She's at the age when I had her.  I'm so thankful that my mother is still with us.  She is truly my best friend.  We lost my father 3 yrs ago.  I still miss him so much. I was a daddy's girl.  He passed away at age 91.  He had a wonderful and long life.  I'm feel so much comfort knowing that he is in the arms of The Lord.  God is so graciuous.  

Well, to get back to the matter at hand.  Yes, I have a birthday coming in a month.  I guess this time, I going to have to buy a sheet cake for all those candles.

I'm so good at taking care of everyone else.....my family, friends and my work, but in doing that, I neglect in taking care of me.  How many of us do that?  Do you spend all your time on other people, but not on yourself?  Eventually, you'll burn out and won't be there for others.  

Decide today to invest some time for yourself.  Take time to relax.  When you are refreshed emotionally, physically and spiritually, you are able to give back to others.  When you bring balance to your life, you will begin to enjoy life to the fullest.

God Bless. 

It only takes one thing for you to be happy.  It takes a made up mind.  You have to decide that you are going to be happy regardless of your situation.  Begin each day thinking of all the things you have to be grateful for.

If you don't get happy where you are, you will never get to where God wants you to be.

In the wee hours of a new day, our feathered friends sing in  unison a song of praise.  Their praise is contagious, as nature welcomes another opportunity to praise the Lord.  Their praise is in the wind, and it shines brightly in the morning light.  With gleeful anticipation, we join them with a loud and victorious "Praise The Lord!"  As we celebrate His love, we feel the serentiy of His peace, and know that He is God!

In the peacefulness of the evening hours, our praise continues as we reflect upon another day of blessings and the unending faithfulness of God.