5/14/2008 Wednesday

Well how do I start. Life was going along ok, then I got laid off and since then my life has had many wonderful events, but many more "How Am I Going to Continue".  34 years ago I meet my love of my life, we married six years later, and have a wonderful daughter.  Unknow to myself, if though I met my love of my life, I never would have wanted this life.  To do not get me wrong I do love my husband, but I have taken care of him too long, and not sure how much longer I will be able to do this.  My husband is can speak english wonderfully, but the written word, he is unable to do.  I have seen loose jobs because of this..he was able to do jobs did not require my communication by the written word.  But as we all know that the body will wear down.  And that is were I am in my life, once again he is unable to work, we have gone through all our savings, and not sure were tomorrow will bring us.  I am working two jobs to make money, but it is not enought.  Your might be asking what about our daughter helping us out..well that is another thing.  She was injured in a car accident 3 years ago, and can work, but not all day.  Currently she is working my selling Mary Kay, but it is not enought.  I just try to take each day at a time.  I found aarp and thought this might be away to let something out, as I am a very private person, but I need to release, as I am not sure how much longer I can hang onto life.