I'VE HAD MY TIME OF BEING A SINGLE IT'S BEEN 3 YEARS NOW... I'VE BEEN A STRONG PERSON THEY SAY BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT I WANT THEM TO SEE IN ME AND I KNOW ALL OF US HAVE THE FEELING OF BEING A TOUGH AND WEAK... SOMETIMES I FEEL WEAK IT'S LIKE I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING... I FEEL THE AWKWARDNESS INSIDE... I SPENT MY LIFE BEING A BRAVE PERSON BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT THE WORLD TO CONQUER ME INSTEAD I WANT TO CONQUER THE WORLD... CHANGE OTHERS BELIEFS THAT LIFE IS HARD.... YEAH I BELIEVE THAT TOO BUT YOU HAVE TO FIND THE RIGHT WAY, WAIT FOR THE RIGHT TIME, FIGHT, DO NOT LET ANYBODY RUIN YOUR WINGS....

BECAUSE IN EVERY ENDEAVOUR THERE IS SOMEONE UP ABOVE WHO IS WATCHING AND GIVING YOU THE CHANCE TO EXPLORE LIFE, TO SEE THE BEAUTY AROUND, TO FEEL EVERYTHING AND PUT US AT THE MOST AMAZING BED WE HAVE ALL BEEN DREAMING OF....THE RIGHT PATH....

people believe what they want to believe because they know with what they believe they will be cured, they will suit their cravings....they will make their life better, happier and contented with this beliefs they got....

how can anyone know what you feel inside?, how can others tell you....? to just mend when they do not know how much hurt you got inside...how much tears fell from your eyes... how much time you've spent just to have it.......

When I had an unexpected pregnancy I cried a lot then told my Boyfriend I don't want this. I still have to finish my studies but then again I still pursued my pregnancy until I gave birth with a wonderful son. I was still shocked when he was born. My dreams before is to become a successful woman with a great carreer but that did not happen.

Time has past I also finished my studies with the help of my family. I thought the greatest milk in life is to become successful with your carreer and now being a woman, a single mother I realized that "THE GREATEST MILK I EVER TASTED IS HOW TO BECOME A MOTHER" my son makes me laugh, when I look at his tiny fingers, his innocent eyes, his innocent askings he makes me "A WONDERFUL MOTHER, A WONDERFUL PERSON". 

talking about oneself is never easy they would think that you are just pretending to be that person. everyday i wake up feeling helpless and wanting a picture of me that i own the things i cannot have like being a successful person, to get the heart of everybody, of course to become rich like bill gates oh just the inch of his wealth,to pass any endeavours i meet on the road...when i am at work i feel the emptines around me well i am a just person who is not contented with what i got...i hope everybody will love me but others hate me i just don't know why hmmm..they do not know what my heart really sings for them...its just true that you cannot have everybody's heart...it is just in dreaming  i fulfill my dreams..i hope someday somehow i would be contented with my life..until again..