It is Saturday morning, 10/24/09. I didn't sleep well last night. I stayed awake very late & woke up very early with a headache. I'm already having coffee & candy corn. The candy corn is probably why I didn't sleep well plus I didn't walk yesterday.
But my main problem still is this marriage. I went back & looked at my journals - and I have lots of them in various places. This has been going on for years. I'm wasting my life away taking care of this man. He does not deserve unconditional love like you'd give a child. He does not deserve a place to live, food, maid service, a car, insurance, etc free of charge. That's what I've been doing for him.
I get nothing in return. I don't even get an arm around me for consolation.
Its all because I made the mistake of marrying this **** on 4/15/2004. I've got to figure out a way to get rid of him. I'll be willing to move, sell this place, give this place away, go to another city, quit my job, hunt for another job, anything it takes to get rid of this albatross hanging around my neck.
I don't care of anybody reads this or not. It does me such good just to type it.