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My husband was this sweet loving, lay back Texas Cowboy. He had a calm cool way of looking deep into my eyes with those dreamy, sleepy green eyes, when I was talking to him. He would look at me with a half grim from across a room full of people. It would just about  take my breathe away.  When we were dating, I lost all track of time, I was always late for my curfew, my strict Catholic parents were not happy.  Ed died because his doctors treated him for a problem he never had. For two years he was treated for a back problem. we changed doctors and discovered  he was already in stage two lung cancer, a nerve test revealed he never had a back problem. He got sick just before he had to start his  radiation treatments.  So we went to the hospital and admitted him.  He had to have  major surgery, and remained in the hospital for fifteen days. I never left the hospital all of those days, sleeping beside him, while he held my hand the entire night. On the tenth day,  he was so tired and depressed. I wanted to do something to cheer him up. I found  a wheel chair  in the hall way. I sneak him out of the room. We went sailing through the hallways, downstairs all over, I put my chin on his shoulder, next to his cheek and just kept pushing the wheel chair ,we giggled at those watching us race down the hallways like little kids, with my cheek next to his. I kept singing Johnny Cash's song " If I were a Carpenter", into his ear. I changed  some of the words .  I was singing " You are a carpenter and I married you anyway and I had your babies". He got out of his depressed mood after that. He was happier when we went home five days later. Ed was an award winning master carpenter, but I didn't care, because I loved him with all my heart and sole no matter what he was.  He always protected me, never allowed anyone to hurt me. I loved that man. He always sat on the corner of our couch, his arm around me. We could sit like that for hours, just watching TV.  I taped a note to the bathroom mirror for him to see when he went to shave the next moring, reading " You were met just to be in my arms, I take this journey with you by my site, so much in love with this beautiful fairy tale life you created for us, you are the love of my life", I married you for better or for worst".