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YOUR MOTHER IS ALWAYS WITH YOU...
Your mother is always with you...
She's the whisper of the leaves
as you walk down the street.
She's the smell of bleach
in your freshly laundered socks.
She's the cool hand on your brow
when you're not well.
Your mother lives inside your laughter.
She's crystallized in every tear drop.
She's the place you came from,
your first home...
She's the map you follow
with every step that you take.
She's your first love
and your first heart break...
and nothing on earth can separate you.
Not time, Not space...
Not even death...
will ever separate you
from your mother...
You carry her inside of you...
~Author Unknown~
"We only have One Mom, One Mommy,
One Mother in this World, One life.
Don't wait for the Tomorrow's
to tell Mom, you love her"
~Author Unknown~
I miss my Mom. Mom left us in March this year.
I felt the need to write this to anyone who will read it. Actually, I just needed to write this for my own personal reasons. It is all probably going to come out in a big mumble-jumble mess, so I guess you can try and make sense of it if you'd like.
I miss my Mom. I miss her terribly. I don't get upset when people ask me about my Mom, or when I have to tell them that she died. I always hear the "I'm so sorry to hear that's", and "I'm sorry I brought it up". You know I am more than happy when someone brings her up! Sometimes I wish I could just sit and talk about her, tell about what a great woman she was. And you know I could, I could talk about her for hours, and I could tell you the stories I remember and the things I know about her or the stories I've heard and continue to hear on occasion. She was crazy. She was fun. She was loud. She was competitive. She was caring. She was strong. She was responsible. She was amazing. But most of all, she was MY Mom. No one can ever replace a mom. NO ONE. No one can take the place of someone who brought you into this world.
I am such a happy person. I am such a blessed person. I don't take anything for granted anymore like I used to, because I know as soon as you can have something, you can lose something. I cherish and appreciate everything about my life and life in general. Life is too precious to not enjoy every day while you can.
I miss my Mom. I miss her laugh. I miss her loud mouth. I miss her calling and saying, "CAN YOU SEE ME?" And I know she would have embarrassed me to high hell if she was still here. And I know ALL of you would have loved her; that's just the kind of person she was. I wish that I could just talk to my Mom again.
Sometimes I wonder what my Mom thinks, how she feels, if she's really up there watching me continue my life without her. I wonder if she sees me cry and wishes she could be here. I wonder if she just wants to kick my ass for being an idiot, or if she wishes she could just talk to me about my boys and now my girls and the trials and tribulations of still growing up and growing older.
Wondering doesn't really do anybody any good anyways. It's just all thoughts that cloud up your mind and toy with your emotions.
This is something that does bother me though. There are so many people that I know who do not appreciate their Moms, or Dads for that matter. Your parents. I know that no one is perfect. I wish more than anything that I could have my Mom back. It hurts me when I hear people saying how they hate their Moms because they got into a fight or because their Mom may act psycho or maybe their Mom just has problems. You need to understand that no one is here forever. Just imagine if your Mom or Dad died tomorrow. What would you do? It is so important to appreciate what you have and love what you got while it is still on this very earth, because once it's gone chances are you aren't going to see them again for a long time.
Please appreciate your Mom and Dad. It is hard to do I know. I have the same problem. But I promise, you hanging out with them, or fighting with them, or laughing with them…it is all worth it. Spend time. Laugh. Live. Enjoy it while they are here.
I would do anything to see my Mom one more time. Just to talk to her, just to touch her. But I know she is watching over me, taking care of me still. I feel her every day. I know she is there. But it's hard. Really hard. I know I'll see her again one day.
Sorry for all this rambling, and I'm sorry if I come off as a bit preachy. But I can't help it.
PS: I just want to add one more thing. I love my life now more than anything. Lori and Ashley are truly the best things that have ever, EVER happened to me.
oh and one more thing…
this was just something that I had to get out and something I wanted to write. please don't feel sorry for me…because I am doing ok. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me because I am not that type of person. I just wanted to share something so people will understand where I am coming from and possibly learn from it.
So please, make sure to tell your Mom, you love her, especially today.
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