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I know when I was a kid I couldn't wait for the school bell to ring so that I could go out and play. As a teen it was all about girls and having fun and cars. When I went on my Mission I wondered did I have the strength to finish my calling or would I go home before my time. when I was in Basic Training in the Army I had a ruff time keeping up with the rest in my squad and when things where at there worst I would say to my self to night I will look at this moment and ponder how I got through it.

When I got married I thought I douldn't be much happier than I was and when my wife told me that we where going to have a child I felt like Super Man and that nothing could hurt me.

After the baby was born I thought that I have a family and thats what its all about. 5 1/2 months later my whole world came crashing down we lost our first child and it flattened me. Doctors couldn't help even with their meds. but with the help of friends and my wife I was able to get through it and then my wife told me we where going to have another child. I was about half way to heaven but this time I wanted to hold off from getting crushed again. when the child was born my spirit sored but about 9 months later we just about lost our second child but because I was there I was able to unplug her air way. the doctor said I was a hero but I didn't feel like one but I was happy that we where still a family. Then when my wife told me we where going to have another child I really felt like a father a husband and the patriarch of our family. 

But that was short lived 2 months later we lost our new member of the family. And then my grandmother died 2 months after that and it was her that tough me how to love, help others, and except life. Also to have fun. It seemed that death was all around me and I was thinking that didn't need any more pain.

but shortly after my wife told me we where going to have another child. This time we had to be sure things where going to be alright.

Oh how that time went fast. Our two girls started school and then Jr. high music lessons the High School and band trips and boyfriends. Then it was weddings. I turned around to see what happened to all that time but all I have are pictures and memories.

Now I'm going through another stage. I was almost killed in a car accident. my wifes mother doesn't have much longer the doctors gave her 2 months and that was 5 months ago. Now my wife has had a stroke and my dad has fallen flat on his face and broke s few bones in his face and a big concushion. I'm not sure which way to go. I think I am going to have to give up one of my dreams with the Used Medical Aids Foundation and take care of my family. I wish I had someone to pass all my knowledge to becase I feel like I'm a waist of time here on earth anymore.

But I will wait and do what I can to help others the best I can.