Happy Sunday to all!!!... Well I have not been around the computer in days!!!... I have been sort of "down and out".  If you wonder why I will tell you.  It is for more than one reason.  My down days started since my separation and divorce.  I bought a little townhouse in a town that I have never been, but it was closer to work.  I really do hate to spend time on the road just to go sit in an office for 8 hours.  I really don't mind going to work, the 8 hours wait to go home is what I do mind.  LOL...To me traveling long distances to work (I work now a mile and a half from home) it's such a waste of time.  It is time that you sit in a car and you don't get paid for, so those who traveled need to consider that into their paychecks, it's like a deduction. The prices of fuel, another decudtion.  For most people it might be a time to relax, before getting home.  Not me!!!... Since I live alone I relax as soon as I step into my house...and this is what I am getting at.  I have not met any friends in my new town, I have met people, but not friends.  I do have friends but they live so far away that in most cases we really have become strangers, we know each other and about but we have become stangers.

I am down and out because traveling "solo" it's getting to me.  I feel sad when I do not have anyone to talk to. The other day someone gave me two tickets to a baseball game, the few people that I know were asked to go but did not want to.  I ended going by myself!!!... Can you imagine!???. Meeeee at a baseball game, in a stadium all alone,this really bother me...but I was not going to waste my ticket and sit home and feel sorry for myself.  So I went.  Thank God I like baseball...I enjoyed myself  while I was distracted by the crowds, the game,  the noises, the fireworks after the game (good thing because I completely missed the 4th of July festivities, due to me being alone) etc...but still I had no one to talk to, to laugh with and I wonder sometimes if this is "all there is"... Life after a divorce???...I know for some people it is not like this!!!...I am really trying to do the things I like to do, but geeez it will be so much better and "funner" if I had someone to share them with. Life is not Fare...equally uneven. Some people have it all, some others not...and it really does not matter about who, what and how you are in your path. All I am asking God for is for a good hearted friend. 

It all comes down to my dog!!!... my only good friend, my only company!!!...and I thank God everyday that I have her!!!...she fills my life with love, companionship and trust. We do a lot of things together.  We walk, we hike, we drive around...but I don't bark and she does not talk. I do smell the roses...

Sometimes I wonder why I do have a phone and a cell phone, when there are days that neither one of them rings.  Like this weekend, it has not rang once!!!... Where is everybody??? I try to keep busy, it makes the lonely days go by faster, that is if I am not sleeping my life away.  No, I am not depressed!!!... I am just so "freakin" bored!!! If I don't sit at my computer I don't get to see or hear from some of the people that I know... Isn't that sad???... I need to do something, but I don't know what!!! All I know is that this needs to stop or I will go insane. I feel like the world does not even know that I am here.... Hellllllloooooooo world....anybody home???????? I am heeeeeeere!!!