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Gender: Male
Status: Married
Ethnicity: Caucasian
Religion: Atheist
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GREENSBORO, North Carolina
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Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you choose to react to it. If you beLIEve something that is contradicted by the evidence then you are on a path built on falsehoods
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I used to be a truck driver til 2003 when my MS started acting up and I was forced to stop driving. I have permanent double vision and my legs don't want to work right so I live on disability and wait for my son who is in the first grade to get home from school everyday. I could sit around and **** and moan about the whole deal but I've made the choice not to. I learned a few years back that life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you choose to react to it. I only wish I had learned that a little earlier in life. It would have spared me a lot of grief, ya know what I mean Vern?
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Inappropriately Undressed

Before I was diagnosed with MS, I was a truck driver pulling doubles up and down the east coast.  One night I dropped a couple of trailers in our yard in Columbus Ohio and proceeded to the hotel to catch a few hours of sleep. This was one of those times I actually got to sleep at night for a change instead of the middle of the day like it usually turned out to be. It usually easier to sleep at night unless I'm extremely tired and worn out. Anyhow I got to the Ramada and checked in and went to my room and proceeded to get some much needed sleep. Sometime during the night I happened to wake up ( partially anyway) and got out of bed and stumbled my way to the bathroom. I was feeling my way around the room, since I didn't see the need to turn the lights on and risk blinding myself, making my way towards the bathroom, when suddenly I heard the distinct sound of a door shutting behind me. My eyes instantly widened to the size of dinner plates. I was instantly wide awake as I realized to my profound horror that I had inadvertently locked myself out of my room. Now here I was standing in the hallway of a Ramada Inn after midnight and I didn't have a stitch of clothing on. That's right, go ahead and laugh yourself silly now. It wasn't funny at the time but I can laugh about it now.  Now where was I, let's see now, door locked, horror, dinner plates, oh yeah here we are.  Now here I was, standing in the hallway completely naked wondering what the hell I was going to do now. Turning the knob doesn't do anything, it's still locked. Well then, the only thing to do was to walk down to the checkin desk and explain my situation. There were only a couple of potential problems here though. To get to the desk I had to walk past the bar and yes the door is always open. Before I could think about that there was the problem of the man walking towards me in the hallway. I did the only thing I could do, I kept walking right past him without looking anywhere but straight ahead. Fortunately he did the same. I found out the next morning he was drunk and wasn't sure what he had seen. I was glad of that. I finally got to the checkin desk and got the woman's attention behind the desk and asked her if she could spare a towel please and thank you. Thankfully the lobby was empty also. She tried to put my mind at ease by telling me people get locked out of their rooms all the time. That may be true but I doubt very many were butt naked when it happened.

Added: September 22, 2008
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wishing
wishing says:

I was thinking about "fair" the other day and realized there really is no such thing. I'm a Christian and am now convinced that we're here to learn. Having lost my ex husband, son, best friend and a cousin to suicide, life got to be too hard. I became disabled too just before I lost my son and I can tell you, what all these suicides have left me is utter sorrow, questions I'll never have answers to and the want to blame myself, even though there was nothing I could have done. The shame and guilt I carry is sometimes overwhelming and for a long time I thought suicide was the only option for myself. Then I realized what the suicides did to my family, my friends and I took suicide off the table.
On those days when thoughts of suicide seem like the only way out, please oh please think of the ones you'll leave behind in utterly crushing sorrow. It's a grief and sorrow that won't be healed. My only hope in healing is in seeing my son when I pass over too in God's time.
I'm here to learn and some of the tests have seemed too much to bear but I've made it this far with the help from God who I first blamed and hated for allowing these things to happen. I've since made peace with God...He was the only one with answers and the only one who cared.
Sincerely,
Marcia
Posted: November 3, 2008 9:49AM EST
obrien
obrien says:

We never know what tomorrow holds in store for us. I've been through some rough times too but I always lean on God. I noticed that you are an athiest. Did you ever believe in God? I hope you don't mind but I am going to pray for you. Don't expect any miracles but just remember that God is only a wisper away. He doesn't care what we've done, He just wants us to know He still loves us. I hope your health improves.
Posted: April 14, 2008 1:31PM EDT
MariaD
MariaD says:

I learned a few years back that life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you choose to react to it. I only wish I had learned that a little earlier in life. It would have spared me a lot of grief, ya know what I mean Vern?


Don't we all wish we'd have learned that at a younger age! My cousin's wife has MS and he is such a good care giver to her. They have had many tragedies in their life, 4 family deaths (my family also but their IMMEDIATE family) and one of those was a murder, and another was a child. They are some of the strongest people I know. Fortunately I am a "glass half full" kinda gal.
Maria
Posted: March 13, 2008 11:04AM EDT
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