You have come to the right place. Do join and post to two other groups here, one is called "death of a spouse" and the other is called "new aarp group" there are many of us there that are willing to help. Your grief is so very new and raw, please come post at the other groups so we can be some support to you. I just don't know how I would have gotten along without the help of the board.
Hope to see you there.
Joyce