ON February 20, I lost my Husband and Best friend to a heart attack. I had no idea how my life could change in such a short time,but when God said in the twinkling of an eye , that’s what He meant.  I’ve had to start a new life all over and it is horrifying to me. First of all, we never thought about anything like this and we wasn’t financially ready for a disaster. I lost my home and everything I had and am having to pick up little pieces here and there to try to make a new life. It’s hard financially, physically and mentally. I don’t know what to do with myself and sometime I find myself wondering if it’s worth trying.